Neil Gaiman ~ Have you ever been in love?

•August 10, 2007 • Leave a Comment

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
~Neil Gaiman~

•August 6, 2007 • Leave a Comment

There are 4 definite enemies in life:-

  • Events
  • Circumstances
  • Misunderstandings
  • Ourselves

BEANNACHT(Celtic blessing)

•August 5, 2007 • Leave a Comment

BEANNACHT
(Celtic blessing)

 

On the day when
the weight deadens
on your shoulders
and you stumble,
may the clay dance
to balance you.

 

And when your eyes
freeze behind
the grey window
and the ghost of loss
gets in to you,
may a flock of colors,
indigo, red, green
and azure blue
come to awaken in you
a meadow of delight

 

When the canvas frays
in the boat of thought
and a stain of ocean
blackens beneath you,
may there come across the waters
a path of yellow moonlight
to bring you safely home.

 

May the nourishment of the earth be yours,
may the clarity of light be yours,
may the fluency of the ocean be yours,
may the protection of the ancestors be yours.

 

And so may a slow
wind work these words
of love around you,
an invisible cloak
to mind your life.

Katatonia “Last Fair Deal Gone Down”(2001)

•August 2, 2007 • Leave a Comment

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1. Dispossession
2. Chrome
3. We Must Bury You
4. Teargas
5. I transpire
6. Tonight’s Music
7. Clean Today
8. The Future Of Speech
9. Passing Bird
10. Sweet Nurse
11. Don’t Tell A Soul
12. Sulfur
13. March4
14. Help Me Disappear

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1. Dispossession

it is to see a traitor go free
it is to feel a filter in me
it is to leave the lights that I saw
it is to ask: is it easy to go

in this dead hour
here with you
seconds are worthless
in this dead hour
when all is blank
minutes are worthless

how long will it take until
there will be room again for hope
it is so sad to see
dispossession
it has become my obsession

it is to have a knife in my back
it is to say my soul got a crack

2. Chrome

the walls are painted
different every second
my eyes are of chrome
it is television

 

can’t let go of my leg
it’s itching and bleeding
layer by layer
I’m peeling away

 

burn down my house
and make something happen
stab me in the heart

 

and make something stop
’cause I am so distracted
I am slightly shocked
by how things can keep going
like a dead man’s clock

 

a mirror is hanging
kinda loose on my wall
I’m passing it sideways
I’m saying hello

 

my brother is halfways
through a book I’ve left him
called me today
to see what I’d say

3. We Must Bury You

we had you down on your knees
we were kicking you in the head
we tried to hang you from the trees
we didn’t stop until you were dead

we must bury you
we must bury you
we must bury you so deep
that noone should find you

forgive me for covering my eyes
forgive me for not saving you
forgive me for being so unwise
forgive me for letting this
be true

4. Teargas

why have you put so many things into my eyes
that I can’t see clear
who’s paid you for telling me what I’m worth
and run in fear
it has been for me a strain to see already
what have you done
the rising noise
the sharpened smells
the deadened sight

 

what is it in my eyes
a piece of broken glass
is this the time I should be on my knees for you
is this your way of telling
another has been found
now I know,
it’s teargas in my eyes

5. I transpire

I can’t say that I am free
as long as they return
if I had a way out of here
would I then return?
they seldom will speak, no
they only breathe, slow

do they know that I’m afraid, so afraid
they depend on my worries, so I know
and I’m awake, I’m right in the circle now
I am with them

there is no way I am going to be free
because their hearts, they are similar to mine
there is no way they are going to release me
from this chain of rows unto our own hearts

I can’t say that I resist my promises
I can’t say that I regret,
behaving like my enemies
I seldom will speak, no
I only breathe, ghost

6. Tonight’s Music

who could call my name without regretting
who could see beyond this my darkness
and for once save their own prayers
who could mirror down just a little
of their sun

 

how could this go so very wrong
that I must depend on darkness
would anyone follow me further down
how could this go so very far
that I need someone to say
what is wrong
not with the world but me

 

who could call my name without regretting
who could promise to never destroy me
tonight my head is full of wishes
and everything I drink is full of her

7. Clean Today

all the white lights falling

the blue lights are falling
night is warm
came down with a promise
I have my best shirt on
I lower myself now
it is a way to forget
of last year’s failure

WILL THE STREETLIGHTS REFLECT ME WELL ENOUGH
AM I TRANSPARENT WHEN I AM CLEAN
WILL THE DARKNESS AROUND ME BE SO STRONG
THAT THERE IS NO WAY I CAN BE SEEN

boys will we become
heroes of this night
or am I just happy
whenever not sober
I cleaned myself well
clean today

and when I pause for a breath
I see millions like me

8. The Future Of Speech

my prospects have become less promising
i find it hard to believe in anything
seems I lost my world and so I lost my faith
and I can’t go back to where I’ve been

 

a brand new day
it can’t get worse
hear myself say
it can’t get worse

 

I have no lies or truth in what I say
there is no meaning
the words are numb and I am so afraid
there is no meaning

 

this is another chance or so I’m told
by these who can push themselves at any cost
they bless me with their fingers crossed
my youth is stolen, transformed and sold

9. Passing Bird

she’s got black hair
and she has got a black dress
she’s pretending
that her life is a mess
but I cannot rest
with so many worries
I can’t lie down
and say I am done

I live ’cause I need more light
I hope I can change today
she would never think of changing
too much fucking emo, it’s false (I know)

she stops me in the street
and asks me to follow

I would if I could
if I wouldn’t mind breaking her.


10. Sweet Nurse

o my sweet nurse
pull the curtain aside for a while
so that I can for once have
the sun in my eye
you smile and say
it’s a fine day

 

o my sweet nurse
pull the curtain aside for a while

 

then like a ghost at night
you come around all dressed in white
talking to me
and so I have to drink
the water with your poison spilled
for no more will

 

o my sweet nurse
seems you have so little time
that you rather put
me to sleep than sit by my side

11. Don’t Tell A Soul

I have been destroyed
by the perfection that is life
see I’m moving soon
see my feet are already on the road

and if you know where I’m going
don’t tell a soul

I live all for this thing
that I heard someone sing
when you have noone

noone can hurt you

IT WAS SO EASY TO SEE
HOW FUCKING GOOD IT ALL COULD BE

12. Sulfur

I’m drawing back time
to feel things once again
as when I had found them

 

I saw you grow older
saw myself grow older too
but not as much as you
if I only knew

 

I had sulfur in my heart
but not enough strenght to give it a spark
I didn’t know when to start
when we were bright or when we were dark
I had a wind in my chest
blew as hard as it ever could
I could have written books for you
if I only knew

 

I held my head down I know
and you walked around in circles
I’m sure you already knew
if I only knew it too

 

so much I want to ask you
you have no time to let me do so
there is no light in my pathway
you must tell me where to go

13. March 4

left with spring alone
I withdraw from this
I lived so differently
it wasn’t good enough

I was with you alone
winter was gone

things once blurred are twice sharpened
when I think of what I could have
blood has left me even before you
can never return a second time

I lived so differently
did it all for it
but everything is now
a film on rewind

14. Help Me Disappear

to completely dissolve,
what method is used
i cannot sleep,
my hands are bruised
there’s a hole in the wall,
torn up anew
one dead eye,
the colour of you

 

to vanish for life
and promise to stay
away from the knowing,
bird in a cage
i’d give so much
for the courage to go
if i ask for your help,
then you will know

 

so help me disappear
or to believe in a change
no way out of here
that i can see
or the nightmares that burn
into my head at night
make them disappear
so i can breathe

 

looked out the window twice,
just to be sure
that noone was standing
outside the door
but it’s just as calm
as it was before
they’re all gone now,
not there anymore

 

isolated myself
for the sake of freedom
i clenched my fist
for the sake of kindness
i read a book full of strange
words
loneliness is a disease

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Sentenced :”No one there” (Vid)

•August 1, 2007 • Leave a Comment

“What is Doom?” view of Aaron Stainthorpe

•July 31, 2007 • Leave a Comment

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Khanate vids

•July 30, 2007 • Leave a Comment

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